Now imagine that that girl you're chasing is single, six years older than you, and 600 miles away. You've been talking to each other online and on the phone for 3 years + and you're about to knock on her front door for the first time. She has no idea you're coming to surprise her. How nervous are you now? What do you say? "Hi?" something else lame?

She throws a party the next night, several of her friends that you've never met show up. She's told them all about you, so they're expecting amazing things from you. You don't know anything about these people, they're all a good few years older than you and aren't much like you at all. How do you fit in? How do you find words to say to live up to their expectations?

^^ me in february


Life is crazy dude, shit happens. Even if you don't live up to your own expectations you can learn from your experience. The girl in my story there was leaving for basic training for the National Guard a week after I left her place, so although timing to tell her how I feel about her was terrible, she knows and all is well.

Because of my shitty timing she got an easy answer to my feelings. "I really can't think about this right now, I have kinda a long term thing with the army goin on. We'll talk about it later though okay?"

I couldn't blame her for it, but fuck that was not what I wanted to hear. I'm glad I told her though.

point of story?

Your situation can be so fucked up that it's hard to find confidence, but you just have to let go of your fears and embrace the moment. If you start to clam up or something just bring up an old story that you kids shared that the other people don't know about... or tell an embarrassing/silly story about yourself. Once you've shown that you're vulnerable (embarrassing story) it's a lot easier to engage in the conversation/be accepted into it.